Some days..

Hey -

There is a Trisha song (I'm pretty sure its a remake) that goes 'Some days are better than others.' Today that is the case. It wasn't so bad. I laughed A LOT. Having Carly and Meridith around does that to a person.

I took your opal ring over to Gary to get it re-sized seeing as how you have the worlds smallest fingers, and its only going to cost me $45 so that was a nice surprise. I'm not sure why, but I definitely figured it was going to be close to $100.

I guess the reason today wasn't so bad was because it was way easier to convince myself that it wasn't true. I was busy from the moment I got up and it didn't stop until a few minutes ago, and now I can just pretend that you've already gone to bed. This is probably going to end up biting me in the ass later in life or in a few weeks or something but I can't help it. Its a totally and completely unbelievable thing to me. I seriously just don't understand how you could be gone - just doesn't make sense.

Oh man - Carly totally redid my resume and made me a cover letter today its AMAZING. Like seriously who knew my job was so interesting, definitely doesn't seem that way day to day while I'm doing it. So now i have that which is good. Everyone always tells you, that you should have an up to date one just in case. Like you never know who you might run into or something. So now I've got one. Kahni passed it off to Terry to get his thoughts on it. So hopefully I get some good input on it.

Grandma also came over for dinner which Randi cooked, and it was actually really tasty surprisingly. She made skirt steak with this special marinade she knows. Apparently besides baking she can make skirt steak. Who knew. Grandma's doing OK. Just taking a day at a time I think. I think having her and Dad being so close prior is really helping both of them.

You would be happy to know that we got all the 'thank you' cards out that we needed to. We got these ones from the funeral home that have your picture on them. Apparently that's a comforting thing to some - to receive a picture on the thank you card.  Its a good picture - from your 25th anniversary when you went on the cruise. Dad picked it out. So at least we got that done.

Anyway - I'm going to head to bed. I haven't been sleeping well which isn't really a shock I suppose. But I'm going to attempt to get a better nights sleep tonight by taking my personal favorite - a sleeping pill. I do find them super helpful.

Love you forever, miss you always.
Rachel