Ready, Set.....maybe?

Hi –

It’s been a few days since my ultimate melt down. I’m feeling much better. Who knows where that came from? But it came, it went, and I have no doubt it will come again.  I hope next time it's not when I have plans though.

In unrelated news, I’m a little disappointed with the results from American Idol tonight. I’m not really invested in anyone too much, I definitely watch the show just for the singing, but the girl who got kicked off was really good. Her voice was huge.

In similarly related crappy reality TV show news, Kirstie Alley is really good on Dancing with the Stars. She’s very light on her feet. Must be from all the time she’s spent with John Travolta. I knew you were really interested on how I felt about those two things. I wanted to put you at ease about them.

That’s about it for me. I spent a lovely evening on the couch with Nick watching episode after episode of Soap. He’s equally in love with the show and it was really nice.

Saturday I leave for my week of traveling. It’s shaping up to be non-stop. I have to say definitely looking forward to it. Think happy things.

Love you forever, Miss you always.

Rachel

“Sometimes it's a pair of old faded denim

I know it's gonna fit me like a friend

Or some radio song you can't help but sing along

Wishing they'd spin it over and over again

Could be the windows down on a Sunday drive

Smell of rain on a summer night

Anything that brings a little more comfort my way

But sometimes, there's those times

It's gotta be you”

American Idol and painting my nails - I'm beyond exciting!

Hi Lady,

Sorry it’s been so long, but I talk to you in my head too. Do you hear me?

I’ve been to Orlando and back. I drank half way around the world at Epcot. One day I would like to attempt it again.  When I have more time, and perhaps a smaller group of people. It was hard for all of us to visit each country together, and travel at the same pace. I had a great time though.

I’m 150% convinced that moving to Orlando is the right thing for me. Everything else though, who knows. There are a million and one decisions that I will have to make in the coming weeks, and I'm scared. I don’t want to second-guess myself at every turn, but I feel like I already am. I know when it comes down to it, I’ll trust my gut and make split second decisions. Much like I did when I ended up in Italy instead of London for a semester. That one worked out really well for me, so here’s hoping I chose the right choices in the coming weeks. I’m just a little concerned about the weeks of waiting that will be coming my way.

I will say this though, every time I think about missing out on baby Huang-Gacek and baby Doyle I get sad. Thank god for planes, and credit cards with airline rewards.

I honestly have nothing interesting to say at this given moment in time. I’m sitting on my bed fast forwarding through American Idol so I only have to hear the singing, and simultaneously painting my nails. Shocker I know.

I miss you terribly. Again, nothing new. I honestly think it doesn’t get any easier. If anything it gets more difficult. As more time passes you think you should be moved on. It’s no longer news that you’re gone. I should know how to deal at this point. It eventually will no longer be an acceptable reason for being in a bad mood, or being a little sad. But I’m not dealing, and I still get sad. As more time passes, more things have happened that you have missed. More things in my life are changing, and not the way they were the last time you were here.

Enough melancholy-ness. I’m going to crawl under the covers now, and really focus on my fast forwarding.

Love you forever, Miss you always.

Rachel