Highest Highs, Lowest Lows. Perhaps a bit bipolar.

Hi –

Not much to say today, except I went most of the day without noticing the date. I even typed it a few times without making the connection. Today is the 6^th month mark. As I have said before, who the hell knows what that means. I think the fact that I didn’t notice it right away is telling enough. And then I noticed, and now it’s all I can think about.

6 Months, 26 weeks, 182 days, 4,368 hours, 262,974 minutes, and 15,778,463 seconds.

Right now, I have nothing else to say but that. Today is 6 months. I’ve come so far, made choices and decisions in that time, moved my life in a forward direction instead of back, and I would throw it all away for you to be here.

Love you forever, miss you always.

Rachel

“Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away to the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
That, we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect.
Without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?

I am but waiting for you.
For an interval.
Somewhere. Very near.
Just around the corner.

All is well.”