Hi,
Tonight I went to a performance of
Loi’s and I was in awe of her the entire time. Not only did she get up in front
of a crowd of half uninterested people and sing her heart out but she's found
the courage and strength to do what she loves. She's so passionate about
singing and song writing. You can see it on her face as she sings. She throws
her head back with her eyes closed and just belts it out. It's an
inspiring thing to watch. She loses her self completely.
You know what I lose myself in? A 48-page
document of testing standards and protocols. Trying to figure out what the
legal levels of cadmium, lead, and phthalates are. Or how many times you can
wash a kids shirt before it can fade and pill.
This is not how I pictured my life.
Problem is I’ve lost the picture I once had. I’ve lost myself. I’m just lost.
Maybe I’m taking a time out and with
you somewhere. Resting. I should probably tag myself back in soon, huh?
Love you forever, Miss you always.
Rachel
“…I was dead with
deciding - afraid to choose
I was mourning the loss of the choices I'd lose
But there's no choice at all if I don't make my
move
And trust that the timing is right
Yes and hold it up to the light…”
Rachel, I never met your mom, but I imagine her by your side always. SOmetimes our path in life is not always straight, pleasant or what we expected. Keep talking to her, I am sure she will guide you exactly where you are supposed to be going.
ReplyDeletelove, doreen
You are a passionate person and you inspire people to try with your encouraging words. Nothing can stop you, and it's in these times when you feel lost that you begin to piece together who you are.
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