Are you watching me

Hi - 

Do you ride with the wind? Are you watching? 

The sleep timer on my TV just went off, I guess I should take that as a sign that I should perhaps go to sleep. I'm not really sure why I'm still awake to be honest. I should have been asleep hours ago seeing as how I took a red-eye last night but what do ya know - WIDE AWAKE am I. 

I guess I'm just going to bite the bullet and force myself to go to sleep. Or perhaps not, I just found an episode of Friends on, and man do I love those Friends. It's the episode where Rachel turns 30 and they have flashbacks to everyone else's 30th's. Pretty entertaining if you ask me. I guess we will be adding seeing me turn 30 to the list of misses that will be happening between you and I. At least you saw Matt turn 30. I have a feeling they will be much the same. Some of the guests will definitely be the same if I were to throw myself a party - Mikaela, Matt, and Lauren. Everyone always thinks about the big things that we will miss out on together - the weddings, births, birthdays, holidays, etc. And so far you've missed one wedding and your presence was definitely missed, but its not those moments that I miss you the most. Its pretty much everything else. Well its actually everything. I miss everything - talking on the phone at work, talking on the phone at home, getting your email forwards that sometimes were beyond stupid, putting my arm around you and having you fit just right in my shoulder because you were so tiny, bouncing potential life decisions off of you, discussing the current fall TV line up and our favorites and total disappointments, discussing Aaron Sorkin's new movie 'The Social Network' and who he should get to play John Edwards in the new biopic he's working on (I thought Rob Lowe might work), being disappointed in Hershey's new Pumpkin Kisses together because they used white chocolate instead of milk or dark, telling you totally ridiculous things that you really don't care to hear but since your my mom you have to - For Example, I wore grown up sneakers today. They had real support in them, laces, and everything. They weren't slip-ons or flip flops or anything - you would have been proud. 

And on that long rambling note about my footwear choices amongst other things I'm actually going to go to bed. Hopefully I'll be asleep by 1am. Wish me luck. If nothing else, hopefully Kalel will have arrived by the AM. If wishing only made it so.

Love you forever, miss you always.

Rachel

Now she's walking through the clouds
With a circus mind
That's running wild
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairytales
All she ever thinks about is riding with the wind...

When I'm sad she comes to me
With a thousand smiles
She gives to me, free
It's alright, it's alright' she says
Take anything you want from me
Anything

Now she's walking through the clouds
With a circus mind
That's running wild
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairytales
All she ever thinks about is riding with the wind...

Fly Little Wing...
I want her to fly