Hi –
Well, shits about to get
real. Really real. Like, lets start the 2-week countdown to my unemployment
begins real. Yep, 2 weeks. Starts now (or tomorrow rather). In 2 weeks I,
Rachel Rosenthal, will be unemployed. Without income. Sans health insurance. (Or
cheaper health insurance). Able to sleep till whenever I want. Not a slave to
the man. I could go on, but I’ll stop myself.
But that’s the gist.
In 2 weeks my
journey/expedition of self-exploration will begin. First order of business is -
get a better name for whatever it is I’m doing.
Moral of this story is I’m
clueless. I’m embracing said cluelessness though. I have no idea what I’m going
to do, or where I’m going to go. I’ve put together a very very very loose road map
that consists of go to Hawaii for the Rosenthal/Lamonica week-o-fun and then go
back to Matt and Lauren’s. Plan over. How does it look?
I have ideas of going to
NYC, Jersey, Boston, DC, Austin, Seattle, Chicago, Nashville, and New Orleans.
Pretty much anywhere USA that I have not been before, or have a couch to crash
on. But that’s it. (This is becoming my catch phrase, by the way). Seriously
plan over. Now, how does it look?
Not only am I clueless,
but oh yeah Terrified. With a capital T. Completely, truly, utterly,
terrified. I’ve got to figure my
shit out. And by shit I mean life. And by life I mean what I want. And by what
I want, I mean just that what I want.
Is it to be a product developer and make licensed merchandise for the rest
of my life? Because, I’m pretty sure that’s not it.
Is it to find a way back
into entertainment and somehow be involved in the process of bringing movies
and TV to people? Something I love more then anything else that I can’t get
enough of. Because I think that might be it. Magical question is how the hell
do I go about doing that?
Is it to finally meet
someone and fall in love, and start a family and have something be more
important to me then a job? Have a reason beyond a job to get up and go about
my day? Because I think that might be it too. 2nd magical question,
how the hell do I do that?
How the hell do I do
anything really?
So yeah like I said,
shits about to get real.
Love you forever, miss
you always.
Rachel
“Woke up on the wrong side of rock bottom
Throw a lot of pennies in a well
That done run dry
Light up and smoke 'em if you have 'em
But you just ain't got 'em
Yeah ain't we always looking
For a bluer sky
If you're ever gonna find a silver lining
It's gotta be a cloudy day
If you wanna fill your bottle up with lightening
You're gonna have to stand in the rain
Lemonade keeps turning into lemons
And you wear your heart on a ripped
Unraveled sleeve
Been run through the wringer
And pushed on to your limit
Say you're just unlucky
But luck ain't what you need
'Cause if you're ever gonna find
A four-leaf clover
You gotta get a little dirt on your hands
And if you wanna find a head
That fits your shoulder
You're gonna have to go to the dance
If you wanna find the honey
You can't be scared of the bees
And if you wanna see the forest
You're gonna have to look past the trees
If you're ever gonna find a silver lining
It's gotta be a cloudy day
If you wanna fill your bottle up with lightning
You're gonna have to stand in the rain”
